Tonight I realized some things anew:

-          I have a really hard time letting myself be known

-          I have an even harder time letting myself be loved, by God and by others

-          I put up walls and keep people at a distance to protect myself

-          I have felt, and feel often that I don’t fit and don’t really belong

-          I have often felt like God made a mistake in making me the way he made me and with the desires he gave me

-          I have for a long time buried my desires, and ideas, and contributions, and deep self because of hurt that I experienced and the lies I’ve listened to

Amidst all this and the lying voices in my head… tonight I felt loved by God and by others. It was a powerful and healing experience.

Rejoicing in the journey - Beth Stedman